Hi Granddad these past 2-3days have been the worst, i just really miss you so much & cant even accept ur not cuming back :'( i just cant get my head round it. I've been trying to look for apprenticeships today, i wish you was here to see my future, i'm going 2 realy make u proud granddad, im going 2 try so hard for u & the family. I want you to be proud of me, i just wish u was here so i could hear what u'd say. But i guess at least u know whats happening, just wish i could hear ur reaction. Everyday, i long to see you, long to hear you, just to hear your voice, telling me im going the right way in life. Joel got on the council couple of weeks ago & we're bidding on places hopefully if council pull there finger out it shunt b tht long, be4 we get a place. Oh granddad, i just can't understand tht u wa fine thn u was gone i really can't. ino wot u'd say, ud tel me t pul my sen tgetha, but i cnt i really never even imagind it t b this hard, but it is its killing me :'( .. anyway im off 2 bed now sweetie, love & miss you millions hope ur resting in peace angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx